I'm JIAHUI .
LIBRA, thats my horoscope .
Currently STILL Sweet16, I INSIST !
turning 17 on 13OCT2010 .
2009 Chung Cheng High Main (CCHMS) Graduated Class .
Email: Jessica_Lee_Jia_Hui@msn.com.
~Pu Hui Kindergarten (1996-1998)
~Eunos Primary School (1999-2005)
~Chung Cheng High Secondary School (Main) (2006-2009)
~Temasek Junior College (2010-????)
Saturday, August 1, 2009
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its almost 5 in the morning . and clearly... i'm still awake . flipping through some korean stuffs . and something tat suddenly crossed my mind is weighing me down . NOW . i realised tat some people don like to face reality . i know that sometimes reality is cruel . but... not all realities are cruel, isn't it ?? in fact, some realities are so negligible that it does not even stand a place in your heart even if you face it bravely . some people like comparison to show that they are better, in their own opinion . frankly speaking. i dont really know how to convey the feeling i'm going through and the troubles i'm having now. its just complicated . very complex, indeed . some people said one thing and carried out another . i really hate this . REALLY . some people are just so skilful in this particular area . sometimes i really think that humans cant be trusted . but i really hope that i can place my trust in someone . whom i can really trust him/her whole-heartedly, without feeling any unease or tinge of feeling of being cheated . guess i'm being dependent . but i just cant let my "trust" be one that never see the light in its entire living years . i dont understand why . why some people just like to say things that opposes their true feelings . in other words ... THEY ARE LYING !! and i personally hates liars . sometimes, there's just this weird little gesture or words that came out from their mouth that just simply irritates me . very very irritated . something that you have it but they do not ... they said they want it. but one day when you told them they actually already have that thing in possession, they do not want to believe it . in fact, they chose not to believe that they actually have it . and its all because they are lying from the beginning . i dont really know how to put this . but i guess if you've gone through what i'm going through now, you will understand it better . people around you are hiding behind a mask . they do all sorts of things to please you. to coordinate with you. and thats freakingly insincere .
there are billions and perhaps infinity types of human in this world . some do weird things that you can never imagine . weird things tat dont even ever crossed your mind . weird things that makes one shocked and amazed at how they can possibly think and say something like that . sincerity and pure innocent minds are close to extinction . perhaps soon, they'll never appear on Earth again. and that will be a really pathetic outcome for MAN ...
