I'm JIAHUI .
LIBRA, thats my horoscope .
Currently STILL Sweet16, I INSIST !
turning 17 on 13OCT2010 .
2009 Chung Cheng High Main (CCHMS) Graduated Class .
Email: Jessica_Lee_Jia_Hui@msn.com.
~Pu Hui Kindergarten (1996-1998)
~Eunos Primary School (1999-2005)
~Chung Cheng High Secondary School (Main) (2006-2009)
~Temasek Junior College (2010-????)
Saturday, August 22, 2009
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its been quite a long time since i last blog . been kind of lazy nowadays . probably due to the tight schedule Chung Cheng has imposed on us Sec 4 students. sometimes i even doubt the fact that i'm actually still breathing ! prelim 2 is just around the corner . in fact, its just 3 days away ! tension is hanging in the atmosphere nowadays . i can feel something gripping my heart every now and then . i guess thats "Stress" ... worst thing: prelim will drag past September holiday and will last for about a month !! oh mo ! no idea how am i going to cope with that when i'm only just starting on revising for social studies . life is sad . life is hard .
had my O-Level Oral on Tuesday . the topic was okay. manageable. however, i still had some doubts about my performance before the examiners . and for now ... i just pray hard that i can get my distinction . but even until now after 4 days have passed, i'm still feeling uneasy and worried . my heart does not seem to listen to me anymore . my mind just break free from my clutches, roaming on its own . i cant seem to stop them from harping on my performance for oral . now that i really hope i am given the ability to reverse time . but thats simply out of the question . i'll just have to face up to my destined fate . and accept it ... thats what i've been reminding myself over the past few days . up to now, i still cant do it .
as what people always say ... happy times always fly by so quickly, like a fast streak of lightning . while ... bad times crawl slower than a snail and seem like a never-ending journey full of anguish . i can fully understand the meaning of these two sentences after leading these 16 years on this Earth . i yearn so much for time that i can forsake anything in my possession . in just a blink of eye, i've grown from a reserved and timid secondary one girl into an outgoing and more intrepid 16-year-old teenager . but for now, i think i really need ample of sleep . thats the only thing i truly desire for my birthday thats coming in less than 2 months' time . all the textbooks. homework. and whatever related to school are depriving me of my sleep and freedom . i'm like a cow working in a field ... doing things against my wish . continually. interminably. unsure of whats ahead of me . i'm sick of feeling tired . i'm sick of forcing my eyelids open when i really wish to close them . i'm sick of being controlled by my heart instead of me controlling it . i'm sick of everything !!!
memorize! memorize! memorize! everything revolve around memorization ! my hard disk is full and is not that big to contain all the stupid knowledge that i must have . who is the one that dig out all these unnecessary information about things on Earth ?? he or she must have been really free ya . their GREAT discoveries have proven to pose inconvenience and great hassle to all human beings that walk the Earth today . i bet if we pile up all the textbooks one would own in his/her lifetime, it could touch the sky and even the Gods . Life is really SAD ! life is a miserable sequence that one cannot rest for even a minute . in your own world, you are the king and you MUST take charge of your own life . you cant afford to make any mistake in planning . as even a small mistake can ruin your whole life and leave regrets lingering around you . even the smallest mistake can cause big destruction to one's life . i am trying my very best to continue leading my life . to continue maintaining my breathing pace . and to control my continuous heartbeats and not letting it come to a halt . the darkened shadows following the contours of my eyes and my tired-looking eyes that seem to be able to shut off its system any moment are evidence to prove the hardship and sadness of a secondary student's life . hope that the efforts that i'm investing in are worth it and i can soon see the good impact it's executing . Go For It !! You Can Do It !! You Can !!
