I'm JIAHUI .
LIBRA, thats my horoscope .
Currently STILL Sweet16, I INSIST !
turning 17 on 13OCT2010 .
2009 Chung Cheng High Main (CCHMS) Graduated Class .
Email: Jessica_Lee_Jia_Hui@msn.com.
~Pu Hui Kindergarten (1996-1998)
~Eunos Primary School (1999-2005)
~Chung Cheng High Secondary School (Main) (2006-2009)
~Temasek Junior College (2010-????)
Sunday, May 16, 2010
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this post shld actually be blogging about last sunday (study date with SuYing), yesterday (TJC band concert at Victoria Concert Hall) and today (GPP meeting *which is not worth mentioning* and study date with Jessica) ... hahas! but ... i'm gonna use this post to blog about some other things . but i promise, next post shall be everything about those 3 days and needless to say, PHOTOS ! laugh out loud !!
okay... after 4 months of JC life ... i miss Chung Cheng High so super much !! all the physical and psychological stress are driving me crazy . meet all kinds of people in TJC ... haix . totally have no idea whats causing it, my temper is getting more and more frequently exploded . hmm. think there seems to have some problem with this statement ... but i dont care ! can still rmb, i dont seems to be really pissed off with someone or even flare up in front of someone . to reassure myself, i've asked a few Chung Cheng friends ... and they agreed they've seldom see me flaring my temper . but after entering TJC ... the whole situation seems to have changed . within jus a short 4 months, i often got this very weird feeling which i cant explain ... especially when i'm listening to songs ... i've never got this kinda feeling back in Chung Cheng . weird isn't it ?? and 'emo' is a kinda frequent thing in my life nowadays ... guess everything is getting more and more unhealthy . just as what my msn pm and facebook status state, today i'm seriously very disappointed . some people may know why ... which i'm not gonna elaborate any further here . maybe its just not worth it to treat some people the way i wished they will treat me . coz they will never treat me back the same way . i'll jus be deceiving myself ... making myself look stupid and everything . maybe i should not keep hoping they will turn for the better . coz it is jus a fantasy of mine and it WILL NEVER COME TRUE ... keep telling myself ... "its jus today they are lik tat... the next time will be better." but this statement is just so WRONG ! totally disappointed . thot at least i have her ... despite everyone doing tat ... maybe she'll be on my side, supporting me . but who knows ?? today she jus failed me . 'SORRY' ?? this word is jus not strong enough to eradicate all feelings all of u have caused in me . jus have no idea why some people just must wait til i display my unhappiness and anger all over my face before they really stop it ... before they really think they really did cross the line . before they really do some reflection on their actions . before they really feel apologetic towards me ... guess i shld really change my attitude towards them ... towards everything about tat ... i shall not be the joking, laughing, smiling JiaHui anymore . maybe they just wanna see my reaction ... but seriously, i dont think i can take it everytime ... it just get more and more over and crossing the line each time . anw, one word: disappointment ...
oh manz! shall stop this post!! and thanks, SuYing!! for mentioning me in your post manz !! i shall mention you here too !! thanks for your encouragement yeah !! and ur listening ear ... bestie forever manz !! love you loads ! cya this sat !! yeah !!
